Monday, November 6, 2017

My Story with CRPS on World CRPS Day

Happy November 6, 2017! Today is my husband and my monthly anniversary and we celebrate 186 months being married today. More importantly, it is world CRPS day.

CRPS stands for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. There are cases that date back to the Civil War and the disease/condition probably goes even further back. CRPS was called RSD (Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy) until the 1990s and so older doctors commonly refer to it as RSD.

You can clearly Google if you are reading this blog so I won't proceed to tell you what defines RSD/CRPS. I will give you my account with this condition.

In 2011 I had a slight issue with my knee after running. I was 31. I stayed off of it and iced it for awhile and seemed fine. In 2012 I was walking a few miles and suddenly couldn't walk anymore due to pain. If I put weight on my knee, it would explode in pain. I did all the things people do and saw a doctor. An outpatient surgery was performed and the doctor saw my plica was causing the issues. You may not have heard of a plica because it is such a small part of the knee. I hadn't. 

My knee healed but I was more aware of my knee on and off. Another surgery was performed and this time the same doctor saw I had a meniscus tear. Another common thing. I healed and I walked for months on my knee. I made it into 2013 before having more issues.

I saw a second doctor who was older and (I thought) wiser. After the rounds of MRIs, another surgery was performed. The remaining part of my meniscus had torn and I had a slight tear in my ACL. This doctor gave me a full leg brace to wear for a month and I started having issues with nerve pain. The brace was removable and so I would sit and loosen it for an hour or two a day. It felt amazing.

The second "wiser" doctor said I should join the Y but I knew something else was wrong. I got another opinion and was diagnosed with CRPS. The average person with CRPS sees 7 doctors before being told they have it so I am truly one of the "lucky" ones.

It is here the story gets a bit foggy and if you want to see all I went through, feel free to search CRPS on my blog. I blogged through most of it.

The pain spread and I tried a lot. Some days you don't have the energy to try and just wish you were dead. I don't mean that in a suicidal way because I know suicide is nothing to take lightly. I just wished I wasn't existing. I would tell my 6'6", 225lb husband to lay on me because it would help me feel something other than pain.

Most people have felt nerve pain some time in their life. It feels like that sharp pain that shoots through a limb or area. To have it almost constantly is overwhelming. My brain was being overwhelmed by the constant "yelling" of my body.

My gorgeous sister's wedding in 2015. I'm the one sitting.

In 2015 we moved to Florida to be closer to specialists. We had dreamed of moving to Florida for years anyway so this wasn't a big sacrifice.

I changed my diet to include only certain fruits, veggies, nuts and seeds. I lost weight. We purchased a reclining wheelchair. I took a lot of strong pain pills. I withdrew from those pain pills. I took more pain pills. I was in bed a lot. I didn't drive anymore and a trip to the doctor left me with more pain so we limited any trips.

I tried Ketamine which is being used for CRPS. Ketamine broke my mind for awhile and left me with panic attacks.

And here is where the story improves. A year ago, November 2016, I tried a group of medications that was being used in Europe. Please know I am NOT saying these medications will help you but they started to help me. However this story isn't about my meds.

My body felt like it was getting more oxygen and the nerve pain stopped shouting at me. It was incredible and it still makes me cry to think about my past self being in such pain.

I now drive short distances after the FL medical board granted me my driver's license. I walk through stores. I get myself off the toilet and take showers without needing help. I eat more. Do I still have pain? Yup. Do I have pain that constantly overwhelms my brain? Nope.

2017, age 37

I have had so many people send cards, pray, encourage and message me. I had someone reach out and say they not only believed me but were "Team Mellissa". I have had a lot of help over the years and I have little bubbles of joy in my soul to have those people in my life.

CRPS doesn't have a cure. Yet. It has a lot of treatments that doctors keep throwing at it though. So, if you are reading this and have CRPS or were just diagnosed with CRPS, keep trying but only when your body allows it. Don't push too hard.

Happy November 6. I truly hope you make it to November 7 without too much pain.


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    Keep up this wonderful, inspiring blog. I know of many patients that read it and it has really helped them to know that others experience similar symptoms, challenges, questions and frustrations.

  2. Hi Melissa! I'm a long-time reader of your blog. I'm so happy to see your life improving from the low points you've experienced. You've got such a big heart and a beautiful soul. You are truly an inspiration. I wish and pray for more healing and health for you. I've been meaning to comment to tell you this but also I'm wondering if you've ever looked into flaxseed oil as a potential aid to heal your damaged nerves? It might sound crazy but flaxseed oil is an excellent source of omega-3s. Omega-3s reduced your potential for nerve damage and can help heal damaged nerves. If your do have nerve damage and you take it, you can feel it "conduct" nerve activity but that also means it's healing you. I took it for years for it's other benefits and then sustained some nerve damage and it's been helping me. Just thought I'd share. Google "flaxseed oil and nerve damage" if you want to know more and talk to your doctor. Anyway, I just thought I'd share! :)

  3. Mellissa: I haven't read your blog in months so binged read your posts. I'm ecstatic to hear the news that you have been improving greatly!! Through all your pain, you have maintained such a positive attitude. And you are grateful for all the things, experiences, and people in your life instead of complaining. You are truly an inspiration not only for people who have CRPS but for anyone who is facing challenges in their own lives.

    I'm truly humbled by your warrior attitude gurrrrrl! EBay brought me to your blog a few years ago so I'm very happy that you are slowly getting to do that again because I know you love it. And you were SO AWESOME at it! I've just been collecting things for that last few years and putting a few things in my antique mall booth. I don't know what is keeping me from listing! I think I'm reading too many horror stories about scams so I'm suffering from analysis paralysis.

    Anyway, I'm glad your new meds continue to work to make things a little better for you. You are such a ray of sunshine Mellissa. I love reading your blog because no matter how bad it gets for you, NOTHING can defeat your warrior heart! I look forward to reading future updates and with God's grace, more good things.

  4. Hi everyone! I haven't posted in awhile as I cannot figure out how to log back into this account. Haha! I'm doing well.

  5. O M G - I'm so glad to hear from you!!! I was beginning to think the worst. Let us know what you've been up to when you can.

  6. Would you consider sharing the name of the meds you take that changed your life? I have CRPS and have experienced ipsilateral spread and am currently taking IV ketamine, which helps for certain. I'm also on low-dose naltrexone, palmitoylethanolamide, and alpha lipoic acid. I'd love to know what has helped you so much!! Thank you!!

    1. I am just now seeing this and I'm sorry it is almost two years later. I don't have control of this blog anymore (long story). Here are the list of meds:

  7. Just recived a preliminary diagnosis for CRPS, it's been almost 9 months. Thank you for sharing your story, the information helps.

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